There's a lot of negative energy surrounding me. Although I try to work at building good karma it's like that dark force is always enveloping me. I feel smothered. Waves upon waves of thick blackness that begin by lapping sickeningly at my feet. Then slowly rising and it becomes difficult to move through the mire. Like in a dream where you try to run but you are in slow motion... eventually it rises to my chest and then slowly over my face and I can't breath. It's like an enormous weight pressing down on me and even though I have fleeting moments of prosperity and good fortune, in the end I am always in a dark place, alone.
That's key in all of this because it's not money and good fortune that makes one feel at ease. Balance can not be achieved by material things. Love perhaps? Spiritual awareness? I'm convinced Thor knows. He's happy. Always. No matter how bad things get he rises above it all. He senses when I'm drowning and he knows my strife.
Anyway.. I'm headed for Georgia tonight with a load from Whirlpool that delivers on Sunday.